Thoughts 05/11/09
Winding wires of thought interlaced,
Jumbled and coiling,
Filling every crevice,
Every space.
Uncontrolled current of its own ebb and flow
Flooding through fast,
Or creeping up slow,
Never ever ceasing, .
Unpiloted, destination unknown,
Clouded and obscue,
Until lightning strikes in a corner of your mind,
And its apparently clear, you're no longer blind.
Circling round and round,
Frantic but yet well formed
Thoughts sparking, winding.
Defining who you are.
Just a little ditty for you I dont have any master pieces yet lol
14/09/11 1.50am
Flesh stripped away, bones laid bare.
Bleaching in the scolding sun, diminished by the air.
I'm quite, calmly waiting, as the sparks begin to fall.
Everything you said to me! it means nothing now, nothing at all.
cast up into the air, now, the truth will fall like lead.
Everything that I once new has been cut down, now its dead.
Leaving in its wake a hollow voided space,
my memories no longer valid, my identity misplaced.
So much for being honest, for never having lied!
You've lied through your back teeth to me.
How can you be surprised? 25 years and not a single word!
Would it have hurt you that much?
If, in the eyes of a child mother is God, are my eyes deceiving me?
Mother, dearest mother! What have you done!?
I did nothing to deserve this, am I not the loyal one?
Loving, caring, Obedient? Honest, reliable, true?
What will become of us now I do not know.
however the buck stops here and its time for the truth.
my situation is still the same as it ever was, but different for you.
Redeem yourself if you can. open the vault.
Burned and blistered
broken and torn
waring within myself
mourning snd forelorn
emptiness, the void
tears of guilty remorse
fighting the dire consequences
of my bitter discourse
raging and running
scars without and within
distortion fogs up my reflection
another bloody tissue in the bin
little girl lost
no where else to run
one look at myself
I come undone
Back to the beginning
with my sorry, broken arse
the cycle now finished
looped, set to rerun