stuff I've written!
Well, as you lot know, when I get busy with a pen/pencil in my hand its hard to tell what will emerge on the paper. yet again the ink has been flowing and theres quite alot to read here so I warn you in advance be prepared and get those glasses out!
just for you viewing pleasure: you might find some of my workings slightly morbid!
so without further ado, I'll begin:
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My soul destroyed,
tattered on the floor.
The door frame shattered and splintered where you slammed it shut.
A new cut with salt rubbed in,
there's nothing but the pain and the sting.
A hornets nest well disturbed,
angry and restless, seeking revenge.
I want closure, I want an end.
It doesnt matter how I look at it,
the truth remains the same!
Your a nasty piece of work and your driving me insane!
You dodge my questions and certain topics of conversation,
but the answers I know, all the same!
Your stupid games and little tricks,
is this how you like to get your kicks?
Your a sad little child with no-one who cares,
because you drove them away over the years,
Drove them away and drove them to tears.
Your Form Of Torture
Take me away from myself.
Remove my mentality.
Remove my soul.
Take me some where else,
so that I can be consoled.
These tears I cry alone in my room.
The desire's gone.
The fire's out.
I really havent got the energy to scream and shout.
What isnt on show, no-one can know.
I dont think I've ever felt this low!
You just add insult to injury.
at night I dream, but not of you.
Instead the emotional death of me.
Emotional insecurity.
Mental instability.
It seems your out to destroy me,
Everything you come into contact with!
what you want,
I havent got!
What you need,
I havent got!
I havent alot,
but what I have you want to strip me of!
And your doing all of this because....?
Merciless Destruction
Today we had an argument and the rest.
You spread your destruction in every direction.
I never knew you could disturb me in the ways that you have.
I cant sleep at night,
I know you'll be waiting for me inside my head.
Going to rest is the unsightly bed of dread.
Yours is the voice that never goes away.
Yours is the voice thats says " I never wanted to stay!"
From this nightmare I cannot be free.
The fearful omnipresence that awaits me.
Why cant you just let me be?
Insanity ripples through me at intervals.
Sometimes I wish that my mind, my heart, my lungs would stall!
They never falter.
As your venom spread,
the bitterness erupts from your head.
Leave never to return,
Will you ever learn?
Leave me Be!
I never long to see,
What damage you've inflicted on me,
Dissolve what you've reaped,
I know that you've creep-ed.
Take your merciless destruction away from me.
Unrest!
Beneath my crazed exterior
there's a weeping willow tree.
The roots reach down inside of me,
right into my core.
the eternal numbness,
of emotional unrest.
I look a bit deeper,
and find a scorpions nest.
what I felt for you,
what I thought was real,
after anaylisation,
I found was an illusion.
I imagine my weeping willow tree,
the roots desperately searching,
But what I find I really need,
is all I really want,
and that is to really know myself!