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I Choose Violence
I really won’t join in the chorus of “if it’s your first time don’t let it be a rando”, because honestly it’s completely up to you. What I would really caution you against is having sex with someone you don’t know who’s showing aggressive tendencies. I don’t want to sound condescending at all, but you have to understand how many truly ****ed up individuals exist in this world, and how easy it is to see people as objects to be used and thrown aside.
If this guy is making you ‘prove your size’ in order to be on top, or pressuring you into having sex as soon as possible, those are huge red flags. If you were to finish quickly, you have to understand the risks associated with how the other party can react. Like others mentioned, your recharge time will be low given you’re young, so foreplay until you’re ready again isn’t a problem at all. What I’d ask though, is do you really think someone who’s shown themselves to be so domineering would go for that option? Do you think it in the realm of possibility that he would flip positions and either force himself on you, or shame you into letting him use you and then kick you out?
If the answer is yes, I’d say back off. There are great guys on Grindr who would make your first time special, some who’d even consider it an honour. One of my close friends has around six hookups a week and has never had a problem, because he’s smart, but the man you describe sounds ****ing terrifying at best. Please realise the damage to your expectations and self confidence a bad first sexual experience can be, and weigh it against your lust to finally have one.
All that said and done, if you’re wanting to last longer, surprisingly I can help with that. My high school and early college years were spent trying to get guys to last longer without ever having to bring it up. For one, relax. Stress can stop you climaxing, but it can also make you far more likely to climax quickly. Go through whatever rituals you find online that help you last longer (masturbating, a small drink for nerves, etc) and tell yourself they’ll help. Then make sure there’s a lot of foreplay to take your mind off things. The position is important too, having the woman on top during hetero sex makes the man last significantly longer, so if he’s willing to ride let it happen. Alternatively, anything that requires muscle tensing for you supposedly makes you last longer, but I obviously can’t confirm that.
Really though, all that is secondary to the person you pick. I took the virginity of three men (and a woman lol) before I met my partner, and I sat through lacklustre (and in one case surprisingly good) performances with no regrets or anger. It’s a special thing to be a part of, and the novelty of the situation far outweighed the need for gratification that other random sexual encounters can have, for me. Not everyone feels like that, not everyone will react like that. Please just be confident in yourself that you’ve picked a good person, and be safe.
Oh and feel free to pm if you want.