cause your parents love you and will get worried something is wrong with you, you don't want to go... I don't follow 😑 so what if they fuss over you? it shows they care, what more do you want ?
well, you can keep it easy:
yes, you want to be helped; then go and see someone for advice, someone who has studied a bit in that field of expertise
no, "cause it's a loss of money and time", then keep it deep down inside, never talk to anyone about it and get more and more frustrated
Originally posted by m!$hA
the reason i dont want professional help is because i KNOW that they'll tell my parents, who will fuss so much over me....and like ive said before.....im not the one to fuss over myself.....and i dont like spending time talking about me........which i guess sounds strange since im doing it now 😬
and i want you ALL to know that i appreciate this so much! i dont know why......but this just.....i dont know! i just apreciate it and thankyou. dont think that im just rejecting what your saying.....i mean....i dunno!
and ive already said bout the 'not opening up to others but doing it on this forum' its because.....i cry so much, and i think thats another reason why i dont ike talking to people about it...i feel that theyre just going 'urgh, mich's crying again!' but on here....you guys actually say stuff, which my friends wouldnt do...theyd just make me tell em what was wrong...then...half of em would leave because theyre like 'doesnt concern me, i dont care!'
so i want to be helped? id give you a simple yes or no, but its not that simple.....i guess id like to not be like this yeah, but its the stage where i have to DO something about it i dont like 😬 and i know that it'd never completely fix it...id always be this way anyway, so it'd just be a waste of time and money really!
hmmm, somehow my post crept above the quote 😑 oh well
sorry, misha, but the only thing that any (sane) being can say about this here is that they are not qualified to say what you should do and you refuse such help
vicious circle, cause those qualified people won't come to you to help you and you won't go to them to get helped
Originally posted by m!$hA
i cry so much, and i think thats another reason why i dont ike talking to people about it...i feel that theyre just going 'urgh, mich's crying again!' but on here....you guys actually say stuff, which my friends wouldnt do...theyd just make me tell em what was wrong...then...half of em would leave because theyre like 'doesnt concern me, i dont care!'
you call those friends???? another thing that bothers me, you have it so stuck in your head that your gonna be this way forever and you cant change it......YES U CAN! but you don't want our help and you are being stubburn and maybe did u ever think thats why your friends treat you this way?? you ask for help then just snub it off when givin to you. i felt really sorry for you at first when u came on here and i thought u were looking for advice. What was the point of posting this thread then if you werent gonna take any of it? i think your just scared to get help and i dont feel sorry for you anymore because you know what u have to do but you wont do it. So if your gonna choose to be selfish and stay depressed for the rest of your life then so be it thats your choice. sorry to be harsh but you dont make sense and turns out you need more help then i thought.
Ok, you don't want to talk to friends, or parents, or shrink (you don't need one anyway, theres nothing wrong with you) but how about a teacher, school nurse, aunts, cousins, write to a agony aunt, phone one of those teen help lines. I'm sure talking to someone would help. And crying all the time, is not really a problem, i expect its just a phase, your emotional. Hurting yourself, well thats bad, but i see why people do it, but you need to stop, for your own sake! Thinking about family dying, i don't think thats a huge thing, just one of those teen thoughts you have when your depressed and emotional.
Talk to someone. And try sorting out your problems.
And don't worry!
I really think you're being childish Misha. Not selfish, wrong word, but damn childish.
I understand that it perhaps took a lot for you to do this, you're not dumb, you knew there'd be people who immediately branded you an 'attention seeker', but I doubt you truly expected the majority of replies to be positive.
First of all, take some time to actually read the whole thread, word for word, because I can see you simply scanning each post and then going into huge rants about your unfortunate existence. Which, I'd like to point out, can't be that bad for the fact that you're perched in front of a computer writing all this. Hun, you can't be that neglected.
Second, once you've read the thread, think about the words each of us have written. We are all being completely genuine, how could we not? We don't know you personally and therefore have no reason to be judgemental, we're saying it how we see it, which is exactly what you wanted if I'm not mistaken.
And last of all, stop seeing your life as such a burden. What did you ever do to deserve this life? Nothing, it just happened. Ergo, don't be so ungrateful for the fact that you wake up every day, breahing, able to do all the things you want to do. You seem perfectly healthy, you don't have a terminal illness, you have all your faculties, and I'd assume you're usually pretty happy when I consider some of your posts and threads.
Like I said before, you are probably just a normal angsty teenager, but if you really need to be certain, what's the problem with actually seeking a professional opinion? At the end of the day, what have you got to lose?
Remember I love you girl, and learn to love yourself, you can't be that bad 😉
misha i know what your going through.
i did the exact same thing when i was younger.
i would always punch myself or bash a few bottles over my head. even worse i set my jacket on fire wile wearing it.
then i realised it was bottled up anger i had.
is there somone who pisses you off that you wanna rip there throat out?
believe me misha after i beat the crap outy of myself not only did i finally get rid of my anger and hate. but i actually loved the pain that i inflicted.
you may be the same.
you may not realise now who or what your pissed off at or abought but one day you will find out and stop what your doing.
Originally posted by m!$hA
ok ill keep it down then! everyone drop it ok! dont post in this thred and we'll all forget about it ok 🙂
You're the one who started this thread, Misha 😕
I thought about doing the same thing you're doing...I almost started cutting myself and crap, but I seriously can't stand pain...But, in another way, I love it, you know? I don't know how to explain it...But, yeah, I think disturbing thoughts about people I love and I enjoyed those thoughts sometimes...Then I just wondered why those certain thoughts crept inside my head in the first place....But if you're beating yourself up and you don't know why, I suggest seeing a phsyciatrist (sp?) and talking to him/her about it. But I think, just like most of the people who replied to this, that it's just anger that you've kept inside you for a while and when you let it out, you're releasing it on yourself. 😕
ok before id say anything...id just like everyone to READ THIS THRED because ive said it before a few times......so this'll be the last time i say it 🙂
im not looking for attention....i dont do that! i hate people who do stuff for attention and im definently not one of them!
i DO appreciate what everyones said.....and thankyou to everyone whos spent their time in this thred and posting long helpful things! it may seem like i dont care what youve got to say,...thats why i made this thred.
however. i would go to a phsyc/shrink or whatever, except that so many people have come here saying 'its just hormones....dont worry it happened to me' and they explain the symtons (evolution-its completely correct) and they all match up! and 14-come on...isnt this the "hormonal" age?
another thing to support that (^^ what i just wrote) is the fact that it's MOSTLY the girls who say "yes ive been through that-dont worry hun youll get over it" and its MOSTLY the guys who're advicing the physc! so im guessing not only is it the age....but maybe a little do do with pms?
that being said id like to reply to some posts!
oh and also thankyou to those people who pmd me with their advice 😮 i really wasnt expecting it...and it really helped 🙂 thanx!
@ ltm: when did i say i'd be this way forever? havnt i clearly stated that id get over it eventually? like i said, i DO appreciate yours (and everyone elses) help! and i dont want your pity....i didnt make this thred to get 'felt sorry for' i made it for oppinion...im that sort of person...i ask questions not for attention..not for arguments..and definently not for pity. i ask them because im wondering!
@ weegie: thats a good idea- i have an aunty who i could trust with this sort of stuff and know she'd help me out without me feeling awquard or anything. thanx!
@ syren: but i AM a child! yes i have read the whole thred! but what i did was reply to someones post immediately affter i read it and read no more until id finished replying....which i no longer will do, i will read ALL the posts then reply. just for you 🙂 yes thats how i want it. the truth not some little lies to make me feel good about myself!
and thats what i think. a teenager with pms...after reading everything here thats what ive come to!
@ evolution: like i said babe....your completely right! its posts like these that make me know its just hormonal!
and i do know who makes me this angry....havnt i said it? its my dad!
Originally posted by m!$hA
however. i would go to a phsyc/shrink or whatever, except that so many people have come here saying 'its just hormones....dont worry it happened to me' and they explain the symtons (evolution-its completely correct) and they all match up! and 14-come on...isnt this the "hormonal" age?
another thing to support that (^^ what i just wrote) is the fact that it's MOSTLY the girls who say "yes ive been through that-dont worry hun youll get over it" and its MOSTLY the guys who're advicing the physc! so im guessing not only is it the age....but maybe a little do do with pms?
Well, I'm a girl who's also 14 and I've never actually DONE any of the stuff you've done...Sure, I've thought about it....But I've never done it...
And I was one of the people who said you might wanna see a physciatrist about it...And again, I'm a girl....So, yeah...😕
But you could be right about the pms thing...That does make sense 😛