that could be explained if you have had a troubled childhood but you're still too young to say that, right 😖
I disagree with those who said you should seek professional help, it's just some random thoughts you're having and lots people might have them, but afraid to admit, you shouldn't worry imho... it's not like you put them in practise ✅ but anyhoo, since I'm no expert, you could get advise from someone more informed in such a subject
@ yers.......i dont know but someone not me....i was gonna reply this mainly to mulder, but since u sorta brought it up......(thisll kinda be off topic to what u asked, but it's on&off topic 2 it if ya get what i mean)
um.....ive had heaps of shit in my life. its fuked up basically! i know that everyone has shit going on in there life....myne is the usual sort of stuf....family.....friends.....jelousy (ive actually been told that not everyone is jelouse of people...but i dunno, i find im quite often jelouse of people) an all that. id say ive had it worse of then "normal" teenagers do....but i havnt had it extremely bad like some...it'd just be in the middle. but the thing that makes it really bad is that im so emotional....it's weired tho...because when someone insults me, i dont care at all! well...i think i dont care...but deep down i do...and all the little stuff just builds up an i just cant take it.......i cry a lot...more than most......i hate my dad. he makes me cry basically every night...........and i think the worse thing is that i like to keep things to myself........i hate it when people try cheer me up when im down........if they ask 'what do i do' i just tell them to leave me alone. and thats what i want. because even though i cry a lot, (ie now) i dont do it for attention.....and thats what makes me keep things inside myself so much....the people who say 'shes doing it for attention' ...... its because of that. i DONT do it for attention, so i dont like the slightest bit of attention when im upset. i hide from everyone, and i dont say a single word...and some times it goes on for days. but eventually the time comes when i have to say something...so i go back to my normal talkative self......i think ive got it all sorted out...but i havnt really, because it's still inside of me....deep down its still bothering me....and it makes me cry so often.
but you guys dont know half of whats going on inside me!
and theres another thing......my friends...i love them! but theres only two of them who i could open up to (not that the others i dont love/trust as much....its just only 2 ppl in my group are the kind of people you tell your troubles to)....one of them is the "most popular" in the group and shes starting to piss me off coz shes so attention seeking! u know what she said to me 2day? theres this girl who calls her at least 3 times a day (im NOT kidding, ive been there when its happened) and theres this new girl in our group, and the girl who calls my bestie only called her twice in the past week and she said to me
'im so pissed of at blah blah right now.....u know shes only called me twice this whole week and she's been off with blah blah every day!'
and the other one....well....i know i can open up to her...but i know she wont know what to say 😬
so what do i do? come to a forum where i dont even know anyone in real life...and tell them some of my problems? thats not really too good is it?
@ yers....thats wher the punching myself comes into it!
but no, no sports for me......i dont do sports.
you know... take a look at the news, people suffer out there... I'm sorry to say, but there are much more important things you should worry about 😖 if you start being a little bit grateful of what you DO have (i.e. are you healthy? that's the most important thing... do you have people that love you? that too) then you might get a little bit undepressed 🙂
*sigh* you just dont understand me.....noone does, and thats the problem! yall are thinking im a selfish little brat right?
well i hope you realise that my goal in life......the only thing thats stopping me from killing myself.....is that im gonna be rich (maybe become a psycoligist or something) and help out the poor....fly to countries in poverty and build shelters for the homless.....build schools for the uneducated!
and so what, your saying that depression is nothing to be concerned about....i KNOW ive got it lucky compared to some.....but its not like ive got the greatest life in the world!
my old s&e teacher once said
"its be great to be rich wouldnt it? you see, rich people dont have anything to complain about! but poor people however....theyre the ones who have it tough"
lets just say that i got suspended for the rest of the week for what i said to him
I don't think you're selfish! it's not a matter of selfishness, it's a matter of experience in life (well, not that I have much, but still 😛)
KILL yourself? oh please! just get undepressed already! you're young, healthy, there are people that love you, more than HALF of the people I know are depressed all the time and seriously? I think that 4/5 is for no reason
might sound harsh, but I'm just not compassionate about this subject, sorry
I'm not a happy little kid living in Lala Land you know! I don't know what's going on in their minds/lives, I just know I wish not 90% of the people weren't depressed over MINOR details... it's getting repititive
I used to know a man that had cancer and still was much more happy than people that get depressed over everyday things... that's the true power in you, if you can do that
I guess some people are either not strong enough or don't wanna try
again, I'm sorry if I'm sounding harsh, just that I'm very stubborn about this thing and not compassionate at all about it 😖 sorry 🙁
well im sorry if im sounding harsh too.
but overall, its not what the problem is, its who's dealing with it!
isnt that how it should be? i mean i can agree with you if the circumstances are someone who's lost all their family members and all their friends and who are poor and have nothing to live for...and someone who's lost their lip gloss, and they were both draumatised...its obvious who should be more upset......but no matter how stupid this sounds......it shouldnt matter what the problem is....its how the people deal with it! if the poor person was happy.....and the lip gloss girl was depressed...then let it be.....if theyre happy, when all that stuff has still happened to them, they dont need people feeling sorry for them - that'll just get them depressed. if theyre a strong person, it shouldnt matter....sure thats not the life for anyone to live...but if theyre happy and healthy - why change it? isnt that the importance of life...the POINT of life?? to be happy? if someones not happy, it shouldnt matter what theyre upset about.....they shouldnt have people saying 'let it go, its only lip gloss!' and if theyre ahppy it shouldnt matter what the problem is....its people happyness that matter, and i dont see how people cant see that!
answer me this question..........would you prefer to be
a) happy and dying
or
b) depressed and being rich...having heaps of friends and family who love you?
i know i'd rather have a, because being depressed is no way to live life...no matter what the circumstances are!
hmmm, sorry misha but from what I see here...
you refuse to go to someone to ask for help, we're not even talking about a shrink, just someone who is educated in the field, not just some random person you know from the net... why? "because you're not that kind of girl",... I'm not sure about Australia, but overhere it is not a capital crime to face your troubles...
people have given you advice as best as they can: "talk to a pro", "it's just puberty", "get undepressed" (love that last one 😛) and you give a whole talk without actually saying something... the only thing you keep saying imo is that it's your problem, not theirs (the evy o posts) or that they don't know what they're talking about (duh, they only have their experience to rely on)
then as pointed out, you say you don't open up to people but you have no trouble posting this all on a public forum were not only the members can read it but also dozens and dozens of lurkers...
my question is just really simple and extremely basic and I want a simple yes or no:
Do you want to be helped?
cause up to this point you haven't been really helping anyone here, not you with rejecting everything everyone is saying nor helping those who are trying to help you
Originally posted by Tired Hiker
Have you ever had anyone you loved and were close to die? I think if that actually happened you'd be really sad that they were gone.
Originally posted by m!$hA
no i havnt. and thats why i get angry at myself for thinking it afterwoods!
maybe you think these things cause its never actually happened to you and you are just curious of how sad you would actually be if someone you loved did die. I know what its like unlike you, its awful...There has not been one year of my life where someone i know hasnt died or been dying. You are a very lucky girl that way and you need to realize that and start enjoying them being alive.
Another thing, you say you avoid people when your upset cause you dont look for attention? There is a big difference between getting help and looking for attention. Just looking for attention is when you go around and tell EVERYONE your problems, get upset and complain about everything that happens to you even if its not that bad, and sometimes even making stuff up just so people will feel sorry for you. Getting help is a little different....dont avoid your friends when all they want to do is help you. I used to do the same thing when i was your age and eventually everyone will just stop trying to help and think your not fun to be around anymore cause people can always tell when your not happy. Then your stuck with more problems and dont feel like people love you anymore, or that you have no friends. Go tell a close friend or anyone you can trust, tell them to keep it a secret...that way your not just telling everyone your telling one person and im pretty sure there not gonna say your seeking attention. It feels good to get things out to someone and you become alot closer to them. Best friends tell each other everything.You can get over depression if you get help. So tough up cause really i think your just scared and being stubborn by saying your not like that,and refusing our help. Think about yerssots question... and if its yes then do whatever you have to get it, cause your right its not fun living your life being depressed. i know ive been there
Misha-
I believe I found one of the sources of the problem. You have proclaimed to yourself in your mind that noone understands you. By this time, you already closed yourself to the loving trust that people may want to offer you. Secondly, you adjust to the setting that if you punch yourself, everything will be better. That is not the way it works, Misha. What works is finding a positive environment in that you can reflect about yourself. YES! Yourself is what comes first. We are constantly worrying about other people, and yet, when we focus too much attention directly towards other outside sources we forget what we really need. We sometimes get to hard on ourselves, creating a negative reality and surrounding.
Focus on yourself. It is like the famous philosophical saying; "You start with the home, and once peace is resolved, start towards the journey with the other nations"...Its like that! You are the home. Fix your problems.
I suggest you take out your insecurity and false temporary feelings and transform that energy into a positive tool. Such as:
When you are angry...get a squish toy and massage that toy.
Or whenever you feel depressed, watch a movie
ETc ETc...
Originally posted by yerssot
hmmm, sorry misha but from what I see here...you refuse to go to someone to ask for help, we're not even talking about a shrink, just someone who is educated in the field, not just some random person you know from the net... why? "because you're not that kind of girl",... I'm not sure about Australia, but overhere it is not a capital crime to face your troubles...
people have given you advice as best as they can: "talk to a pro", "it's just puberty", "get undepressed" (love that last one 😛) and you give a whole talk without actually saying something... the only thing you keep saying imo is that it's your problem, not theirs (the evy o posts) or that they don't know what they're talking about (duh, they only have their experience to rely on)
then as pointed out, you say you don't open up to people but you have no trouble posting this all on a public forum were not only the members can read it but also dozens and dozens of lurkers...my question is just really simple and extremely basic and I want a simple yes or no:
Do you want to be helped?
cause up to this point you haven't been really helping anyone here, not you with rejecting everything everyone is saying nor helping those who are trying to help you
the reason i dont want professional help is because i KNOW that they'll tell my parents, who will fuss so much over me....and like ive said before.....im not the one to fuss over myself.....and i dont like spending time talking about me........which i guess sounds strange since im doing it now 😬
and i want you ALL to know that i appreciate this so much! i dont know why......but this just.....i dont know! i just apreciate it and thankyou. dont think that im just rejecting what your saying.....i mean....i dunno!
and ive already said bout the 'not opening up to others but doing it on this forum' its because.....i cry so much, and i think thats another reason why i dont ike talking to people about it...i feel that theyre just going 'urgh, mich's crying again!' but on here....you guys actually say stuff, which my friends wouldnt do...theyd just make me tell em what was wrong...then...half of em would leave because theyre like 'doesnt concern me, i dont care!'
so i want to be helped? id give you a simple yes or no, but its not that simple.....i guess id like to not be like this yeah, but its the stage where i have to DO something about it i dont like 😬 and i know that it'd never completely fix it...id always be this way anyway, so it'd just be a waste of time and money really!