here's the one I did the other day but forgot to bring with me lol
Chaos
Do I love you or do I not?
Is this what my heart so long has sought?
Do I really want to do this again?
And possibly cause myself even more pain?
Can I live with the things that I have done?
Too much failure against what I have won?
Have I ever loved or am I fooling myself?
Should I just lock myself away on a shelf?
I don’t know what to do,
I don’t know what to feel,
Don’t know where I’m heading,
If anything I’ve felt was real,
I thought I had it all,
To find I had lost it all,
No one here to catch me,
When I quickly began to fall.
I’m sick of feeling my world crash down,
A sorrow so deep I think I may drown,
I don’t want to set myself up once more,
But I can’t help but wonder deep in my core,
If this time may be different than those past,
Might be that this time the love will last,
But I’m so scared to try again and be deceived,
When I can figure myself out I’ll be so relieved.
I don’t know what to do,
I don’t know what to feel,
Don’t know where I’m heading,
If anything I’ve felt was real,
I thought I had it all,
To find I had lost it all,
No one here to catch me,
When I quickly began to fall.
Feelings, emotions, doubts, racing through my brain,
Don’t know how anyone in this position can be sane,
They lurk constantly in the back of my mind,
Leaving me in one hell of an emotional bind,
But every time I try and figure everything out,
It all scatters every which way, and I want to shout,
All I desire is someone to love and cuddle and kiss,
Don’t see why I or anyone should be denied that kind of bliss…
I don’t know what to do,
I don’t know what to feel,
Don’t know where I’m heading,
If anything I’ve felt was real,
I thought I had it all,
To find I had lost it all,
No one here to catch me,
When I quickly began to fall.
Dreams take me away, help me to see,
Visions that will bring the answers to me.