I can openly cry
Upon your shoulder,
You will not question why.
Pain is within the heart of the beholder.
You shall wipe away my tears.
No longer must i silently suffer,
As i have done for so many years.
Against tormentors, love is a buffer.
The past is a painful burden to bare.
i have suffered so much strife;
Unlike others before me, I will always care.
Let love back into your life.
i hate my smile
i hate my laugh
i hate the way i sleep
i hate the way i feel when i look into those eyes
because i hurt the one person in this world i want to be with for a very long time,
i hate the guilt that wont move
i hate the way that i lye awake thinking about what i've done unable to sleep,
or eat or think about anythink else but the guilt that wont move,
Even tho i feel guilt that will proberly kill me one day,
Even tho the look he gives me still contains all the love it did befor,
Even tho he says he's not mad or upset,
Even tho it feels like my heart has gone and im empty from guilt,
I still love him, i still want to be with him even tho the guilt will kill me, because i would kill for him.
i wish he could feel the guilt feel the pain that i feel when ever i look into those eyes and relise what i've done and how much i've hurt some one i love so much.
the guilt is over whelming.
i dont want my smile to fade, but it will.
i dont want to be unable to laugh, but it will happen.
i dont want to be an empty person destroyed by guilt........i dont want to be without him.
but both things will happen one day, the guilt will destroy me, and the love he feels for me will fade.
i just wish he would be mine forever, in my arms and happy, but its my fault hes not with me forever, its my fault i made him upset.
the guilt is unbarable, life is unbarable... no one understands the guilt.
But me
Reach into the darkness,
And pull out my heart,
So you can feel my love,
Even when we are apart.
I hope you feel my pain,
I hope you see my cuts,
Because without you, dear,
Life itself just isnt enough.
I bleed and bleed,
And bleed some more for you,
Pick our promises off the ground,
And always keep them true.
When I'm alone, I feel nothing,
Yet all I do is cry.
Please just hold on to my heart,
And never say goodbye.
I feel empty when you're gone,
A hole is in my head,
But when I hold you in my arms,
You resurrect me from the dead.
But if you ever want to leave,
And decide that we should part,
I'll be alone in that darkness,
But you'll still have my heart.
...in the end, I will always bleed for you.
All alone, in the never ending dark.
Was there really a spark?
I miss that night,
if I could... I'd fight, to re-live that memory again.
But I lye here...Cry here... want to be with you but can't.
I would treat you right, Day & Night.
I would love you forever, and ever... together we'd be, in history.
Because you don't feel like I do.
And I care so much I feel as if I am dying,
but I am crying...
Crying for you, cause there's nothing better to do.
The hurt feels like it will never end.
The pain becomes a trend...
Because, I Love You.