The Wolf Family that Lost there Way

She turned away from him and stared deep into the trees, not really looking at anything, making her presence known in a way that would make others feel as though they were not there. "It does not matter where I hunt; I will always end up in trouble with someone, somewhere. It is in the nature of our kind to hate my flesh and blood, every fiber of my being, and it is in my nature to be hated, to hate them back for what they have done to me. You are the first creature that I've ever come across that has given a damn about my life and how I live it, or whether I am even alive to live it. In a way, I am touched, and in another I hate you for your rebellion against ways that were set in the hearts and souls of creatures everywhere."

She spun around to face him, the green in her eyes seeming more prevalent though it really wasn't. She suddenly looked as a murderous creature, a malicious look quick to form upon her face and in her gaze. "You hear that Kai? I hate you. I hate you. I hate you for caring. Why can you not be normal? Why can you not care about your own life? The thing is not even your species and you care about it. Its species is the one that raids our food stashes, my food stashes. I have killed enough to survive, yes, but if the excess had been there for me to eat it I would not be as I am. We would not be having this argument if not for its species." Her head snapped towards the fox, and she suddenly felt as though he should not be eaten but tortured, have his skin ripped off while he was still alive. She was suddenly filled with hate and rage, emotions that were extremely taxing on the body, particularly one already in a weakened state.

ooc: Sorry for the length. Really got into this one.

Kai smiled "You can hate me all you want... but i will not hate you..." he said he stood up and walked towards her. "You can do what ever you want to me, but i will always care. It is MY nature to care... I do not care for the nature of others, but for others themselves... Crow, you may not know it now, but you will care eventually.... Just as I do." He was already right infront of her, waiting to be snapped at or bit. "Do you care that i was willing to give my life to protect another and help you? or the fact that i am offering you a chance to hunt along side me? Because i do.... I will not let you get hurt, i do not tend to have you introuble, simply to help you, and make sure you are ok...." He smiled and put his nose against hers "But you have to trust me... im expecting you to bite me, or snap at me or something... i do not care... I wish you would just atleast TRY to listen to someone who cares crow..."

James looked out of the snow and noticed both wolves were distracted. He took his chance and ran as fast as he could, out running even the fastest if wolves if they were there. He found a nice hiding place and hid.

"Kai, you are wrong. I will never care. Not as you do. I cannot be like that. I cannot undo what I've done, and I wouldn't if I could. And if, by some twist of fate, I had turned out as a caring creature, I would be hated anyway. I will be hated by all, except you, it seems. There is something ingrained in the hearts and minds of out kind that leads them to hate me. I can live with it. I do not mind. They do not bother me. But you. You, Kai. You bother me. You are willing to be a martyr, to die for a creature that you likely hardly know. It is a weakness, Kai. A weakness. I will never fall to that. I will never be as weak as that. You do not deserve to call yourself a wolf."

Crow pulled away from his touch and hungrily began to leave, her head low and her tail drooping; she did not have the energy to make the exit that she would have liked to. She was for herself. She did not seek to hurt others, but she was shunned so she did not mind doing so if the circumstances called for it. She may not have been the perfect example of her species at the moment, but she had her pride.

ooc: Crow has such problems. 😐

Kai shook his head. he walked nextto her "Please crow, if it makes you feel better, you can just kill me. you think im an idiot for caring, maybe your right, but i do not wish to let someone die if i can help it... you said you like the taste of carnivors, well, here is a willing one. I am your friend crow, i know you dislike me, but please... if you would judt give me a chance to prove i can be a good friend..." he tried

(can I still be in this? and if so may I have a recap?)

Originally posted by Dawson
ooc: Crow has such problems. 😐

ooc: And Crow will likely never trust him.

ic: "Kai, you are pathetic, you know that?" She stopped and looked at him intently. "I will not kill you because I would not eat you. I do not like willing prey. Part of the joy of eating a predator is that the hunter becomes the hunted, and the new hunter has the privilege of watching the surprised prey as it dies, the life draining from its eyes as the blood drains out its neck. A predator that is willing to give himself up is not only pathetic but not true prey. If my only objective was to feed myself physically, I would be perfectly fit right now. And yet I am not. I feed something more; I feed myself, what and who I am. I despise falling to a point where I have to settle for something less."

Kai sighed and rammed into her side, hard. "I only want to help you!" he barked. he already knew she was to weak to fight him full scale. "Listen Crow, if I were pethetic, i wouldnt help you! Your the pethetic one! The feelings that i feel are ABOVE you! You do not deserve to feel them. You are nothing but a heartless wolf! If i werent your friend, i would kill you know!"

She hit the ground hard, her body falling limp for a moment from the shock of the fall and having the wind knocked from her chest. "Is this how you help? Make my condition worse? Make me hate you more by giving me a reason to do so?" She pulled herself up from the ground, panting lightly. He could kill her now, and she knew it; but he wouldn't else she would not speak nor act the way she did. "My definition of pathetic is much different than yours then. Kai, I have never had a need to be sympathtic and compassionate. Isolated incidents when I have done so have had no effect on my life, had no different an outcome other than that I was left without what my goal had been in the first place, perhaps left with less than I started with. This world has given me no reason to care, no reason to give a damn about any creature other than myself. You are not me; you have no right to decide what is best for me and my life." She almost snapped at him, her face coming close to his as she spoke. "At least I am a wolf. You know what hearts get you? Pain. I have felt more pain than any creature should ever have to. Go ahead and kill me; I do not have an opinion on the matter any more. I might be better off if I were dead." She muttered under her breath, "As if I am actually alive now."

ooc: The more I get to know this character, the more I roleplay her, the more scared I am of her. I created her; I made her who she is. Thus I am scared of myself. There's some self actualization right there. And people say roleplaying is pointless.

Kai walked over to her. "I dont think so.... anything that happens, i will help you.. i just want you to trust you... i wouldnt kill you... i have never killes another of the canine species..." he gently leaned on her "Is it so hard to trust? you think you will get hurt if you do? i can promise you this crow... i will always help.. until my death." he licked her neck gently and walked infront of her "Please... just.. trust me..."

Originally posted by Dawson
ooc: The more I get to know this character, the more I roleplay her, the more scared I am of her. I created her; I made her who she is. Thus I am scared of myself. There's some self actualization right there. And people say roleplaying is pointless.

ooc: I've never roleplayed to get to know myself, but by the mere fact that these twisted characters are coming from my mind shows me something. I put my heart and soul into my characters; they are parts of me. I am afraid for them to die as I would be for myself. Just more proof that I should see a psychiatrist.

ic: "Kai, you make me almost wish that I could believe you. Almost. I have heard the words before, seen the actions play out before my eyes. And I have seen the actions change. I cannot fully trust; I will never be able to. Doing so requires emotions that I cannot feel any longer, if I ever truly could. I am tired, Kai. I'm not sure if I will feel the same way later, and I can never promise anything, but I will trust you for now. In my current state, I could not live if I didn't." She became bluntly honest, not beating around the bush at all. "I am using you Kai. I do not mind in the least. I still live for myself, and you are how I can continue to live. I do not like relying upon another because it has never done me any good before, but I will try it one last time. Just once."

ooc: To roleplay a ruthless Crow, I must be feeling like that at the time of writing. I can push myself to those emotions, but I have pulled all of them that I can out of myself for the time being. I will be able to recall them tomorrow, but tonight, just as Crow is, I am tired.

Kai smiled at her "If anything, and this i promise, if anything ever happens to you crow, i will be there. i promise it on my life" he sighed and looked directly into her eyes "I truly do not care if i am being used... Just so long as i can help you crow." he walked to her side and gently nudged her. If she wre tired, she should sleep. "You can rest, crow... if you can truly trust me, crow... you will not be let down.. the past my have been done... but this isnt then, this is now..."

(sorry for double post...)
James continued running. He looked back and ran directly into another female wolf, Roja. He did not know her. The small fox immedietly went to his belly and covered his face with his tail, whimpering and shivering. "p..please... dont hurt... me...."

The alpha nearly tripped as the little fox stumbled into her path. She had been moving at a quick pace, keeping up with a scent she had caught some ways back.
The black wolf nudged the fox with her cold nose, pushing him over and onto his back. "Why would I want to hurt a creature such as yourself?"

James slowly lifted up. "I..I dont know...." he said looking at her "I..I do not wish... to run... anymore..." he said as his body collapsed beneath him. He was exhausted. "I..ive ran... all day..." he panted softly as his eyes were fixed on her teeth.

Crow allowed her body to fall to the ground, becoming limp as she drifted off into a peaceful sleep without saying anything. Kai's words still rang in her ears. It was reassuring to have someone who swore that he would protect her, though the thought tugged at the back of her mind that he could, would, just kill her as she slept. He wouldn't, she knew, but never before had there been a creature that didn't think that killing her was the best option.

Roja sat down in the deep snow and looked down at the fox.
"You wont have to run from me. I dont eat fox."