Originally posted by Scribble
You have a cool and interesting job and get to work abroad, sounds like you've already accomplished a fair amount to me man
Appreciated but really those were just opportunities given by going with the flow. I kind of float around from one thing to the next. I haven't actually found the motivation to do what i want to do yet.
Originally posted by Scribble
Meaningful relationships are what I seek. Sex doesn't interest me without some kind of a bond, idk why, it's just not on my list of priorities. I don't have any delusions, I've just experienced something that could in no way not be what they call 'love'. It was the whole shebang, honestly.
oh boy.
"love" is still hormones dude. you can be so logical about other things but this love thing blinds people badly. you're taught this word to explain what's going on inside your nuts.
that's the truth. we're mammals man.
that love thing seems a lot different when you make good decisions and you're in you're mid 30s.
just goes to show that it's hormones
Originally posted by ScribbleWhy did you do this?
Nah nothing that extreme haha. In 2014 I just went a bit crazy and cheated on my long term girlfriend for basically no reason, then built a massive web of lies around it and even when she found out I made her not tell anyone else, even though I continued doing it (with the same girl) and pretended like everything was normal. It all came out eventually and everyone hated me for it and rightly so, I'm a ****ing POS for doing all that. Haven't formed a truly meaningful and steady relationship since though so I guess that's my penance?
Originally posted by RaisenYeah there's always worse I guess. I just take things like that pretty hard. Makes it hard to trust myself, I guess. She was defo legit though. Four years, man. She was 16 and I was 18 when we started going out so it was a proper 'growing together' kinda deal.
she's just an attractive human. I've had them before also.doesn't mean shiit dude. there's more. if she was legit which you can't even be 100 percent sure of...then she'll learn her lesson also.
it's a scummy thing to do but we all do scummy things. it's pretty far down on the scum bag list compared to a lot. live and learn
Like you say though, live and learn, one day all that will seem like a distant memory
Originally posted by FoxsteakGet this: I was mentally ill and alcoholic.
Why did you do this?
😐
But that's not all, I guess. I was scared of losing her when we both went to uni, for one. I think my mind was like "hey let's break everything up before then by being crazy"
Idk man it's a ****ed up complex scenario that to this day I just do not understand
Originally posted by Scribble
Get this: I was mentally ill and alcoholic.😐
But that's not all, I guess. I was scared of losing her when we both went to uni, for one. I think my mind was like "hey let's break everything up before then by being crazy"
Idk man it's a ****ed up complex scenario that to this day I just do not understand
We all goof man. Learn from it an keep on
Originally posted by Scribble
Yeah there's always worse I guess. I just take things like that pretty hard. Makes it hard to trust myself, I guess. She was defo legit though. Four years, man. She was 16 and I was 18 when we started going out so it was a proper 'growing together' kinda deal.Like you say though, live and learn, one day all that will seem like a distant memory
oh man. you're still a kid is what it is.
don't make any terrible binding choices man. you can spend these years developing your talents and wealth. don't let your nuts make you go crazy or make bad decisions.
you can be in your late 30s and early 40s and look as refined as ever. be established. be mentally stronger.
you're falling into the illusion we are all taught.
Originally posted by RaisenThey were some life-affirming ass hormones then, dude. I mean technically everything is just a chemical reaction in your brain, even the most basic happiness. So for me, this was probably the best chemical reaction I ever had. I've been very successful artistically and educationally since and it hasn't done shit to me. Even if love is a construct I'd still chase it to the ends of the earth. Nothing else will satisfy me. It's a major malfunction
oh boy."love" is still hormones dude. you can be so logical about other things but this love thing blinds people badly. you're taught this word to explain what's going on inside your nuts.
that's the truth. we're mammals man.
that love thing seems a lot different when you make good decisions and you're in you're mid 30s.
just goes to show that it's hormones
Originally posted by Scribble
Get this: I was mentally ill and alcoholic.😐
But that's not all, I guess. I was scared of losing her when we both went to uni, for one. I think my mind was like "hey let's break everything up before then by being crazy"
Idk man it's a ****ed up complex scenario that to this day I just do not understand
it's not complicated. it is human nature dude. don't let anybody make you think it's unusual.
Originally posted by socool8520Taking those opportunities are what matters though, taking them and making the most of them. You'll find the motivation eventually, just have to keep at it, like you're doing. Nothing wrong with floating, I'm pretty much doing the same
Appreciated but really those were just opportunities given by going with the flow. I kind of float around from one thing to the next. I haven't actually found the motivation to do what i want to do yet.
Originally posted by Scribble
They were some life-affirming ass hormones then, dude. I mean technically everything is just a chemical reaction in your brain, even the most basic happiness. So for me, this was probably the best chemical reaction I ever had. I've been very successful artistically and educationally since and it hasn't done shit to me. Even if love is a construct I'd still chase it to the ends of the earth. Nothing else will satisfy me. It's a major malfunction
dude. it's because you haven't had another yet.
believe me man. get yourself right. be confident in yourself. you're the phucking man.
I've had my "loves" then I got older and saw things clearly. it will happen to you too
Originally posted by ScribbleSounds it.
Get this: I was mentally ill and alcoholic.😐
But that's not all, I guess. I was scared of losing her when we both went to uni, for one. I think my mind was like "hey let's break everything up before then by being crazy"
Idk man it's a ****ed up complex scenario that to this day I just do not understand
Well, I guess we've all got shit on our hands and it's probably better to move forward.
Originally posted by RaisenWell, I'm 25 now, but that is still pretty young. I can feel the years slipping away though. But yeah, these next bunch of years I'm dedicating to personal improvement and a new construction of Self. I just want to focus on getting my creative works out there and earning some money on the side at the same time
oh man. you're still a kid is what it is.don't make any terrible binding choices man. you can spend these years developing your talents and wealth. don't let your nuts make you go crazy or make bad decisions.
you can be in your late 30s and early 40s and look as refined as ever. be established. be mentally stronger.
you're falling into the illusion we are all taught.
Originally posted by RaisenWell, this is true. Not that I haven't tried, I just haven't tried that much. Uni was no place to start anything like that though so I guess that was smart of me (or just bad/good luck)
dude. it's because you haven't had another yet.believe me man. get yourself right. be confident in yourself. you're the phucking man.
I've had my "loves" then I got older and saw things clearly. it will happen to you too
Confidence is deffo key. It's what I'm focusing on at the moment, it's something I've never had. Other than creatively
maybe you wanted out of that relationship and just chose a very destructive path in doing so? i only speculate that because you seem to lament your actions far more than the mere fact of losing her.
regardless, you're obviously self-critical over it and have likely engaged in a lot of corrective introspection. that indicates a healthy approach, as opposed to some here who just blame substances and jews for their behavior.
Originally posted by Scribble
Well, I'm 25 now, but that is still pretty young. I can feel the years slipping away though. But yeah, these next bunch of years I'm dedicating to personal improvement and a new construction of Self. I just want to focus on getting my creative works out there and earning some money on the side at the same time
years slipping away
oh man. you keep repeating cliché woman talk dude.
you're a man. you can have kids until your 70 for a reason. you're designed this way for a reason.
stop stressing dude. it's phucking hormones and some feminized media.
you've got nothing to worry about