i was always that type of person though, i clicked with one and i stuck with that one. Chris, my mom's childhood friend and we were best friends until like 10 years ago or. We had intermediate session but this one seems permanent. (because i don't know how to grow emotionally) (and he would steal my dvs) (also i feels he stole my shiny pokemon cards) (i am a pushover afterall, and non conventionalist)
so the time i started accepting others, not that i ever had hate towards them. It was bullying, And like i said my friend Victor that i made since 2nd grade at Pasteur, because of his sociability, he got me into the main popular group-ish. Like he got me other friends who would talk to me think about me, know me. There was a group of those type of ppl. I wouldn't consider like like your typical popular group ion American TV etc. I don't think it was as bad as that where there were groupd... maybe i wouldn't know cause i was a part of the "cool" kids til 6th grade
my crush.. Rita who rejected me, probably too right (****ing too pretty, everyone crushed on her) ... Michelle (now), she was a good friend then she left early in 6th grade, like, she really was a good friend to me. I say i never saw her that way back then, now, i haven't spoken to her since, but i did add her as a friend on Facebook like a stalker. She's not much of a facebook'er but her beliefs are so on points with mine. If only i had more than zero confidence
wait, also i have a girlfriend, idiot! ****ing stupid *****. a woman who loves this shit out of who. why? **** if i know. but she's given me so much. i've had bad times with her and she stood there and accepted me. and then i did it again, worse even, and she was still there. ****'s my problem. i owe her so ****ing much