It's the amazing low low low Ush thread!
There seems to have been a number of threads about unhappy and/or stressful lives lately. Damn you people! I used to have a monopoly on depression around here! I demand you all get happier at once!
Anyway, I am in super-depressed mode again. Looks like I have dug myself into another hole. At this point I have so phenomenally pissed off and freaked out Edna and her sister that I am marginally more likely to fly to Mars than I am to even vaguely talk to either of them again. AND it's entirely my fault. Isn't it irritating when you cannot blame anything else? Oh yeah, I probably screwed any chance she would come back to the board, like she had been thinking about. Oops.
And what with a lot of other strains and stresses lately I have actually spent this year getting LESS well, rather than more. I am more sickly and tired and fatigued now than I remember being... pretty much since I joined this place. Which makes sense, as I met Edna a month after that. Oh, and I just got another rejection as well, which is always an arse, and I cannot seem to get any coherent ideas together right now.
Oh, and I am also lonely and fearful of my future, but that's me and most of the world so I cannot fret too much there.
Talking of my future... I am actually going to go and look for a job soon
(Women scream, strong men faint)
Yeah, yeah. I know... one of my friends says that is a disaster, that I will lose my unique nature and he had respect for a man my age who had never had to go through the aggravation of work, ever. But- assuming I get over this funk and get back feeling better again- it is getting to the point now where I am well enough to do SOME work, at least, and the whole writing thing isn't going to pay dividends for years at best and... I need the damn money, you know?
AND I need to have less time to think about stuff. At this point, thinking hurts.
And I also have it in mind to work somewhere with some pretty girl who I can charm with my evil ways...
Anyway, I seem to have gotten distracted. Basically... I feel absolutely shitty right now.
So... how are you guys doing?