well ush, it looks like its been a bad year for both of us so far. my girlfriend who i loved very much lost her feelings for me, which if you havent experienced that is one of the worst feelings that exists. the fact that i did so much for her, and gave her love when no one else would, and saved her life a few times when she was suicidal...makes things worse.... if she could leave me, after i tried to do nothing but make her happy and feel loved... what chance do i ahve with anyone else, ill never be able to trust anyone again after whats happened... its tough, just find comfort that you arent the only one suffering ush.
I've lost loves and yes it does hurt. But everything happens for a reason BF (and Ush), you'll see.
There's gonna be a time when you look back on these old problems and laugh, because you'll be in a much better place. Trust me.
Now, on a lighter note, who wants to give Ush money so that I never wear this outfit again?
He's only looking for a couple of thousand quid to keep him in computer games and milky bars.