ok, I found some scribblings in the bottom of my college bag.
this is a rather angry rant about the most recent relationship I've had and got dumped! so you cant say I havent warned you.
untitled:
your line was completely original! NOT!
you enfuriate me.
I cant think of any other way to get this across.
what do you want from me? or what was it you think you'd found?
there are things that need to be said and if they hurt,
well, thats not my problem!
I want it out in the open.
your hiding something and I'll find what it is.
there are things I have to say that I need to get off my chest.
you make it thata much harder but not hearing what I say.
you say your life is so different from mine in many ways.
I cant help that fact but I take you as you are!
I'm not who you think I am.
you cant see beyond your nose!
if theres something that you've realised then I want to know!
I've been hidding something from you and I know you want to find out what
give me 1/2 hour of your time I'll satisfy that urge.
I cant help the way I am the same way you cant help yourself.
lets lay this out, hang and dry it!
lets not make this a mess.
I want to resolve this,
tie up lose ends
and if this is what the result is,
then we'll both have to bend.
this is a song I wrote and I was having a really bad day. every one was getting on my nerves and just everything that was said to me was wrong.
Burn You!
how can I live in a world
where every thing I touch turns to s**t?!
so many lies and half truths!
No such thing as a happy environment under my roof.
how can I live in a world where everybody digs up what I've struggled to kill and bury?!
I cant just throw it in the trash can and leave it where it lies.
It just waits for some one else to find it!
its my turn to burn you!
my trun to get anrgy.
tired of being the worm!, its time to turn.
time to show them another me!
black sky, acid rain! this is how I really feel!
all you think about it what you'll gain.
non-stop banter! just shut your mouth!
I've had enough this time! better get me some help.
the pain and anger I feel, its breaking my heart,
which in its turn will tear me apart.
I cant say what I want, cant say what I feel
just let me breathe, gimme some space.
I need time alone, time to heal!
its my turn to burn you!
my turn to get angry.
tired of being the worm, its time to turn.
time to show them another me!
itsa all your fault! you set the beast free!
you gave life to the danger in me!
to late to go back.
gotta show another me!
you set the beast free
gave life to the danger in me
too late to go back!
gotta show another me!
I'll burn you!
I'll burn you!
I'll burn you!....AWAY!
STAY AWAY FROM ME!
CANT YOU SEE WHAT YOU'VE DONE?
EMOTIONALLY CRIPPLED ME
STAY AWAY!!!!!
I remembered my note pad today!
dismissed without notice
dismissed without notice!
how rude!
I never thought you were a jerk
i now know differently
you know how to really get to some one.
but I guess you dont really care.
there's a truth I didnt want to know
but as ppkl say the truth hurts.
I cant believe you ignored me.
but you did and thats the way it remains.
I thought I knew you well.
what a lie!
truth is, your not worth my time.
you pushed this not me.
you find you cant handle the consequesnces and abandon me!
such chivalry isnt worth the time of day.
I have submittled my resignation.
I have nothing further to say.
Dismissed without notice.
This time is mine.
finally doing what I want to do.
I feel freedom for once. I'm riding on the wind of selfawareness
I've waited a long time for this chance
so I'll make the most of it
I'm not goingt to be pulled down by idiots
Its my time to shine.
for those who dont know me,
dont get in my way
this time is mine, no ones going to stop me.
before I couldnt make up my mind
but now I see what should be mine.
this time is mine
its my time to shine.
this time is mine
its my time to shine
I've waited a long time for this chance
I see what should be mine.
no ones going to stop me
its my time to shine.
this time is mine.
Defeat me!
I dont hear what you hear.
I cant make sense of what you say.
I cant see what you see.
I dont percieve things the way you do.
if you know what I want to do to you,
would you still stand there and stare me down?
your the cause of my torment.
I know what it is you hear.
I know everything confuses you.
I know what it is you see.
I know what your persective is.
why do you carry on walking this path?
your games affect me no longer.
you stir the danger within.
if only I were deaf!
if only I were blind!
if only I could completely resign myself into submission
if only I could get away from you!
if only I could delegate my hatred for you.
if only I had never had you there!
if only I could forget you entirely.
if only the destruction you cause would stop making me ill!
I want you to see what you have dont to me, to see who you are.
to make you realise you cant manipulate me anymore.
you.....to be continued!
There are so many words
Yet there are no words
For when I look into your eyes
No words need to be spoken
And the warmth of your smile
Is a statement in itself
And how could I ever try to explain
The trembling in my body
When I touch your face
There are no words to explain an emotion
So I open to you my mind
That you might walk
Among my Dreams and Memories
Then… and only then
You might understand my silence