Originally posted by m!$hA
seriously fire, in the moment.....im not saying right now i can go and do it....but if i was having one of the usual fights with my dad that i have, and someone handed me a gun, i could kill him.
and im NOT one of those people who kill or anything. im completely against wars and killing and everything....infact i dont celebrate things like anzac day nd stuff (dunno if you guys know what that is, but in aussie we have a day with like a moments silence to praise the soldiers in the war or whatever) and im against that, because im not congratulating someone who's gone off and killed a whole heap of people.
and once again, this probably sounds really selfish of me and all but ... i dont think its right. and when people say to me "if they hadn't of fought, then you wouldnt be here today" but i mean...if i wasnt here, then its not like i would be like just a mind thinking "why oh why arent i born yet!?" so really i dont care 😬
anyways, my point being that i really do hate him. and yeah i guess i shouldnt be saying this over the net for many reasons....but im just stressing what im saying! 😬
I doubt you really hate him, it sounds more like you just get into huge fights and resent him very much at that time. I have had MASSIVE problems with my father, and we fought all the time. After one time last summer, I decided that I didn't want to see him again. And I haven't, and it's been over a year. But even so, I can't hate him. I dislike him, I resent him, but I don't hate him. Because hate is a very strong emotion, and it takes a lot of energy to hate someone (and frankly I don't think it's worth my time and energy to hate him).
Originally posted by m!$hA
well i have never really been "bullied" but i've been picked on a few times 😬 and i really do know how horrible it is. i've been through everything at school really....being a loner, a popular person, being stuck in the middle ... all of that.you see, when i was "bullied" it was different to when peeople asay to you "eeew you wear glasses your ugly" and stuff like that (not saying i think ppl who wear glasses are ugly....theyre actually very sexay droolio i myself even have reading glasses 😎 ) anyway, my point is that when i was "bullied" or whatever, yeah it was in a different way. all my life i've felt the pressure to go with the crowd. now im not that sort of person, which makes it worse....because my whole body and heart is telling me not to say "yeah i like that song too 😕 " when really i hate it, but my mind is saying "but if you dont like it, she wont like you" which i hate....normally i wont...in fact its like a 99% chance that i WILL say something i dont mean, like that song thing, but there still are the times when i do say it, and i get really annoyed at me.
im reasonably smart, but ive always felt that if i admitted to being smart, then my friends wouldnt like me, or theyd tease me or something!? my friends at the moment are restricting me to everything i do...including having fun, which is why i am changing schools.uh i really dont think ive explained myself well 😕 but maybe you get my drift?
Yeah, I understand what you're saying. Thing is... Nobody's doing this to you but yourself. This is the worst thing you can do to yourself, covering up who you really are to please a bunch of plasticated (to use your word 😉) dumbass popular kids. Yes, they will pick on you, but I'd much rather have that happen than do something I don't want to in order to please them. I've never liked those popular asswipes anyways...