Originally posted by LaraSorry cheri... hug well i kicked it in the gonads, so you should feel better soon! 😆 and do be well, hon.
prosiac? dont you mean prozac? i will try sweet heart I will try so ill at the moment tho! got one of those damn flu bugs whish has been going around at college and its knocked me for six. 😂 I always get ill in the hols, its not fair! 🙁
Originally posted by Larahug sorry babe. get well soon, ok? Be well, cheri.
well i'm better that i was and i still havent got my meds but hey, I'm still alive and kicking. will write more soon I promise, it just seems that along with the congestion of the infection I have a congested writers block! its a real pain in the arse.
I was listening to some music I havent listened to in a while and on the linkin park hybrid theory album is a song which I thought holds alot of meaning not just for me but for alot of ppl. and I thought I'd post the lyrics.
"Pushing Me Away"
I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you
(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you
(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away
Pushes me away
just how I'm feeling right now. I dont know how many of you relate to these words but I found some comfort in them even though they are some one elses words and I have a literary block at the moment.
just find that living with some thing that aint too pleasant and trying to deal with it is a hard enough task on its own without every body else knowing about your issues or keep asking if your ok and having to turn round and smile and say "yeah, I'm fine" when really all you want to do is curl up in a ball and cry in a dark corner some where out of sight.