well it took me long enough to find this place!

Originally posted by Lara
this is a song I wrote. bad one at that.

This pain I cannot bare

Finding what’s already there is all that’s left to you
Is a gory nightmare
The only difference is that you know you cant wake up

I live I die sleep and cry
This pain I cannot bare
I drink and smoke I long to toke something other than fresh air
This pain I cannot bare

Everything that’s left to me, is nothing much to really see
In a bubble, I live
Its like a sieve when all that’s passing through it is fluid

I live I die, sleep and cry
This pain I cannot bare
To cut my skin is a sin, but it’s the only thing that makes me not care
This pain I cannot bare

To realise this is just a dream, If only I could scream and scream
I want to wake but there’s no way out
All I have is nerves and doubt

Finding whats already there is all that’s left to you
A gory nightmare
The only difference is that you know you cant wake up
Everything I’ve ever done is never good enough
The things I’ve seen have made me scream myself hoarse
But its still not enough
Relieve me from my torment, wake me yp
I cant take anymore, I’ve seen enough

I live I die, sleep and cry
This pain I cannot bare
I drink and smoke, I long to toke something other than fresh air
I live I die, sleep and cry
This pain I cannot bare
To cut my skin is a sin
But it’s the only thing that makes me not care
This pain I cannot bare
This pain I cannot bare.

Originally posted by Lara
thank you guys 😮

and now for that early stuff I promised. baring in mind this stuff is really early I was still at school when I wrote this stuff so was between the ages of 11 and 15.

A simple question with an unknown answer
Bleeding and wounded without a plaster
An aching heart without resolve
Unexplained riddles are not so easily solved

Pain speaking but not English
A currency that’s not gold
Too many thoughts and tales remain untold
Too many wishes that are far too bold

You know that I know things have changed
You know that I know that you are chained
You know that I don’t know how you feel
You know that I don’t know what light to see you in
You know that I’m uncomfortable in my own skin

Uneasy glances and lost words
Missed chances, tongue tied and hurt
Tearful eyes, depressive anger
A nervous itch and insecure laughter

Curiosity getting the better of me
A voice inside telling me what I should see
My conscience making a mockery
Why cant you see what you’ve done to me?

omg cry I love this

Dang.................. um, talent is a weak word to describe the glorious gift you have. hahaha..... 😮 wow....

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
Dang.................. um, talent is a weak word to describe the glorious gift you have. hahaha..... 😮 wow....

tysm. like I was saying before hand i was having a tough time when i wrote them and now i revisit what i wrote it still hurts, I had forgotten all about them, my friend has had my book for a long time.
but I survived it and I'm stronger now. I'm really pleased that you have enjoyed what you've read here and I promise I will post some more real soon.
*hugs all*

Oiram62205 I was under the influence when I wrote that song lol, im all sorted now and have been for a long time, but how can you berate yourself like that. its simply how you feel right?

cold. I have alot of catching up to do in your thread havent been there for quite some time. I look forwards to getting there at some point I really enjoy your work.

DW! only one new one from you! *tut tut* I'm patient 😉 really enjoyed what you did post though its very fluent has a nice relaxed but structured pace. really like it alot.

bilb, not seen you around before but thats for posting and Hi *waves*
if any one has any thing they wish to know please dont hesitate to pm me or email me. I will reply as soon as I can. 😄 thankies to you all I wuv ya.

Originally posted by Lara
tysm. like I was saying before hand i was having a tough time when i wrote them and now i revisit what i wrote it still hurts, I had forgotten all about them, my friend has had my book for a long time.
but I survived it and I'm stronger now. I'm really pleased that you have enjoyed what you've read here and I promise I will post some more real soon.
*hugs all*

Oiram62205 I was under the influence when I wrote that song lol, im all sorted now and have been for a long time, but how can you berate yourself like that. its simply how you feel right?

cold. I have alot of catching up to do in your thread havent been there for quite some time. I look forwards to getting there at some point I really enjoy your work.

DW! only one new one from you! *tut tut* I'm patient 😉 really enjoyed what you did post though its very fluent has a nice relaxed but structured pace. really like it alot.

bilb, not seen you around before but thats for posting and Hi *waves*
if any one has any thing they wish to know please dont hesitate to pm me or email me. I will reply as soon as I can. 😄 thankies to you all I wuv ya.

Hahaha.... yeah, not been on for a bit.... hahahnot been HOME for a while. helping out a lady. found out why i went through all the kuh scheisse in my earlier years a few weeks ago, and (get this!) I actually completed my first quest! hahah I am for real here. hahaha.... I found the reason for it all up to now, and now I am left with "What next, God?" hahahah so very cool, yet so ...... very..... i dunno. anyway, I am gonna write some more tonight !! yeah! alot to.. hahahah.
Love and hug's from your knight! PLUR!

😊 so whats this quest your talking about DW? sounds interesting.
"kuh scheisse" is that some kinda cheese? 🙄 (j/k) but no, really what is it!?
and whats with "PLUR!" dont you mean "PURR!"? 😕

more coming soon, hopefully. 😂

Originally posted by Lara
😊 so whats this quest your talking about DW? sounds interesting.
"kuh scheisse" is that some kinda cheese? 🙄 (j/k) but no, really what is it!?
and whats with "PLUR!" dont you mean "PURR!"? 😕

more coming soon, hopefully. 😂

k.o 😉

hhahaha!

😛 ner ner ne ner ner! *hides*

Originally posted by Lara
Oiram62205 I was under the influence when I wrote that song lol, im all sorted now and have been for a long time, but how can you berate yourself like that. its simply how you feel right?

When I go back and look at that song I wrote it is nothing close to what I am capable of writing. It's just a imple fact. The song I wrote was about a relationship I was in. I did feel what is contained in it, but the song I wrote is really not all that great. 😬

Originally posted by Lara
😛 ner ner ne ner ner! *hides*

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
?? ner? you dARE NER ME!??!???!?! Well MEH! to you! hahahah!

NNNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😛 😗 kisss

Originally posted by Lara
NNNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😛 😗 kisss

well indeed. hahah MEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha! hug kisses

Originally posted by Lara
NNNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😛 😗 kisss

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
well indeed. hahah MEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha! hug kisses

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