DreamingWarrior
Knight Errant
I can be all the bad you want honey! hahaha 😱 heh heh .... j/k 😄
Very very very cool works. I like the first, the second is cool, and stay true to you, and the third is like the one I wrote last night but DIDN't post... it got a bit intense... hahaha nice works Lady Cold.
As for the cutting, you really want to know here it is:
From my own experience, and the experience of friends:
We used to cut ourselves in 2 fashions; the just cut to feel better and the suicide attempt.
The suicide stuff was the deep, using a razor style crapola that, well, landed some of my friends in the hospital, some in the grave, and me in trouble as well.
The feel better cuts were with pretty much anything sharp, and the pressure in our head and the stress we felt sort of went away for a while when we cut. The problem is, it doesn't STAY away, it just passes for a second. Eventually, like a druggie, we were cutting more, deeper, farther, and ending up hurting ourselves alot worse than intended for the same effect. THAT put ME in the dumper with my mom, who I was living with at the time. Cutting NEVER FIXED ANYTHING. It just made it WORSE. I hurt myself, my friends, and my family. I scared away my girlfriend, and luckily didn't end up too badly scarred.
Now, the BIOLOGICAL Science behind cutting is thus:
Whenever your body is injured, several things happen: Your brain releases adrenaline to keep you going, sort of a natural cocaine, and seratonin, sort of a natural upper with happy thoughts and the feelings and all. The adrenalin/seratonin mix hits you full force along with the shock of blood loss, and that essentially get you high. Like sniffing glue, or shooting up, but in an even more dangerous sense. See, when you are to that point that you are cutting, psychologically you have given up, even if you don't think you have. Cutters don't do it just for a bit, or for fun. We (because I still struggle with it, so it is we) do it for an escape and attention. When you get that low, you need to seek help. IF not your parents, then at least a counselor, preferably one with a behavioralism background. Psychologists are ok, but they work off drugs and theories too often. Behaviorolists will get down to the nitty gritty, the cause, and then help YOU work it out, not just hype you up on drugs.
There you have it, in a nutshell. I have been there, and I speak from experience both doing it and studying about it to understand better why I did it. If you struggle with this crap, PLEASE seek help now. Please. I have lost too many friends and people I loved to see more just give it up and die.